
I looked up the symptoms of being a hyprocrite and I'm a hypocrite
I claim to be a muslim but here are the following sinful acts I do:
Rarely pray my Salah, and when I do, I'm not fully focused (most of the time I finish a whole Salah in undera minute which is shameful)
I pray Qur'an only because I have to, as I've got a teacher
I lie alot
And of course, the millions of sins everyday people make
I know I'm a bad muslim, but I continue to intentionally commit sin. I want to change, but there's something inside me stopping me from doing so. Maybe its the Shaytan, or I have angered Allah so he doesn't want to bring me on the right path again. I'm just really scared of going to hell on the day of judgement.
I believe even if I did pray more, or read Qur'an it would still be without the correct intention.
Could someone give me advice on how to get closer to the straight path. I hope you understand its not something that can be achieved within a day, and saying stuff like 'pray 5 times a day, read quran, etc.' won't help because I already know I have to do that, and like I said, I would be reading without the right intention anyway.
All I want, is advice to get closer to God, and advice on how to learn to love my religion and fear God on my inside. I want to change my heart. Sorry if this post is too long or a bit cheesy, but it's my first on this site and I hope everyone understands.